It is sad to see how fragile life. currently my SISPEC bed buddy is warded at CGH with leukemia. donnoe how he is coping with it.

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?

And I do know I'm wasting my time
doing things I can't stop doing?
And it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And I just can't change me

'Cuz I lost it all
But you last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's not too late
but I can't go back to you
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Do you know you still are my hero?

All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And I try to pretend I don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And I just can't change me

'Cuz I lost it all
But you last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's not too late
but I can't go back to you
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

By the way, since it is 1 Month to my 20th birthday, this is my wishlist

1x new wallet
1x camp pass (Replacement)
1x 11B (Replacement)
1x IPOD video*
1x Watch (Digital)
1x headphones
1x warchest
1x laptop *
1x Good Charlotte's new cd (Or some1 help me download the new cd)
1x key pouch
1x bicycle*

those in * are wishful thinking but maybe some1 reallie rich reading wants to donate to me by all means!

Hey all. i'm sorry if my blog seemed so drama like "This is my last post" etc... the issue was that some people read my blog and there was alot of confusion and misunderstanding about it. i tend to use my blog as a personal diary and some things were not meant for some people to read. to stop all this problem, i acctually created another blog for that purpose, and this blogs is for general reading. i have decided to start over a clean slate by deleting all the other entries so far. i'm sorry to all those who were misunderstood and to those who had falling out due to what has been blogged here.

Dear Lord,

For the times when I....

Became religious like the Pharisees;
Looked at people without Love;
Wept at the altar but went home unchanged;
Start flippant conversations when really, I should have been talking about You;
Succumbed to sleep instead of sitting at Your feet and spend time with You;
Only choose to look at my own circumstances and become self-centred;
Am lazy and reluctant to serve;
Broke Your heart;
Look at my life and do not see the purpose You have for me in it;
Do not have faith even though I say I believe in You;
Have pride in my heart and think that there's a slight chance I could make it without You; Belittle myself;
Overestimate my abilities;
Fall into self-pity;
Am more willing to be encouraged than to encourage;
Want to be understood more than I want to understand others;

I'm sorry.

But I know I love You and nothing's going to take that away from me

In Jesus Name, Amen


(c) Natalie Wong
http://www.unashamedtruth.blogspot.com/